Hai, it's me again with my another heartbroken story edition

Sebenarnya ini lanjutan dari ceritaku sebelumnya kalau kalau kalian baca yang judulnya '9/5 : DUMMY'

After having separation for 1 month, we finally getting back together. Kalian tau gak sih, selama sebulan aku terus berdoa dan bilang sama Tuhan buat kasi kesempatan setidaknya aku pingin ini jadi the last of my love journey and we can unite. I was really sad and depressed at that time. I cant understand what exactly happened and i have noone to share with. I kept it to myself and cry every night. All i can do is manifested  all the good things that i believe in. 

One day, i decide to create special journal and custom gift to him as my last goodbye because i think i have to fight for my feelings till the end. So, yeah i did it. Aku begadang selama beberapa hari buat selesain jurnal yang aku buat dan jujur puas sama hasilnya. It was my first time for doing this romantic kinda thing. I guess it was the most romantic thing i ever did in my life ngl. Besoknya, aku langsung print dan pack bareng sama hadiah yang udah aku custom. Aku send ke rumahnya yang jaraknya sejam dari rumahku hehehe tapi pakai grab soalnya ppkm jadi aku gk bisa kasi langsung. Awalnya dia gak mau nerima tp aku beg to him to accept my last gift that i could give. Suddenly, he called me at night he said it will be the last time for us to talk. Akhirnya, dia cerita alasan dia pergi kenapa and i was shocked like literally shock but pretend dat im ok bc i dont want him to know dat i really broke inside. Then, i cried all night and ofc i cant sleep well. I guess it was our goodbye... i decided to sign out my ig bc i cant bear to see him and afraid to see something dat i shouldn't know. i try to take it all the pain with me and face the reality

BUT SUDDENLY he called me again and said that it was cancelled ( i cant tell u guys what 'it' refers to bc it his privacy sorry :( tbh idk whether it was cancelled, postponed or it was never happened but i believe on him) I was both happy and sad at that time but i think everything is gonna be fine and believe that prob that time will be our union with no more pain, no more separation and only happiness. 

We did all the couple do, we decorated room together, spent the day till late at night together, we argued like couple, watched movie till asleep and even share the bathroom together. Also, i have my own toothbrush at his home.